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Subj: surprises

who do i see on the early bus this morning, but our friend at the computer repair shop. I waited for a second, cause i wasnt really thinking i would approach her at all, shes listening to something and i wasnt really in a mood for talking to anyone anyway. But eventually i just suck it up and walk over to her and hang around there. She looks up and sees its me, and i’ll be honest, i wasnt expecting this to go well at all. her face seems to STRETCH- her eyes go all buggy and she sucks her mouth in like she just saw a giant squid in front of her, she might as well have. She gives me a little wave and i remember why i liked her so much.

Im like sup. Shes like hey, then she holds up her ipod and pinches her fingers around the title of the song. (Helena) i go haha. She then pumps up her fists and shakes her head like shes at a concert and whispers “WHATS THE WORST THAT I COULD SAY!!!” this is all incredibly important. I sit down next to her, i feel like i just been rehydrated after a drought. I ask where shes going, she says shes starting school again so she wont be in shop much anymore. Then she turns to me all serious all of a sudden and goes look. Im sorry i gave you your computer back so soon, i felt really bad i couldnt fix it (no problem) No really, i feel so bad, honestly it was because i got spooked and it made me give it back before i could really think about it (oh no). She said her DAD was spooked by it too, which is a crazy red flag for a hardware store but whatever. I almost ask her what about it spooked her and her dad but i have a feeling she wont tell me anything i dont already know. I go listen mine was kind of a special case. Dont sweat it. Meg looks unsure but goes okaaay…. And skips whatever songs playing now. I just felt bad i couldnt help, she says. Didnt you say it was for your job?? I go ummmmm (because i dont want to lie but it really honestly truly was and i WAS fucked there for a bit.) and then were both a little quiet. I was just touched she cared so much. I have her phone number now but i really dont know what i could do with it. Call her? Hang out? What do you do with people who like you again?

-847

Subj:

why do you even bother letting me post? you could just destroy everything i make. But you handpick stuff to keep and delete. you do it on purpose. why?

here? Like 1square?

when you aren’t in the mood to talk to me i always manage to provoke you by going here. I KNOW you don’t want me here. you don’t want me talking to others. why don’t you stop me?

No, scratch that. why don’t you ever stop me in a way that matters?

i feel like you’re lying.

taking your sweet time i see

wow threatening again. real boyfriend material.

you did something to jason. I don’t even know how to reach him otherwise. I last saw him, what, in high school. meghan never answers her phone. And i don’t even know who this clara chick is. What did you do to her?

answer me. are you just going to kill anyone i try to talk to?!?

Im not doing that.

NO. I am never
fucking
doing
that

NEVER

Subj: Are you okay? You’re not talking

he didn’t show up cain

5 hours

i don’t know what you did but i was waiting out there for five

Hours

leave me alone

i just fucking thought i had one friend

i’m going crazy i feel like im going craxy. he said to meet me at the park right

he said he was going to meet me there, he messaged me to fucking say that

his “family computer” is he serious... and i know they probably only let him go on like bible study sites or some shit.

you dont know what this dude was like in school he tried to fucking proselatyze my friends. He was such a little weirdo. still is apparently

since he thinks he can just stand someone up like that just cause im some kind of degenerate who listens to nondenominational music

can he see this? I hope he can. Youre a piece of shit Jason

what does that mean

lol

im sorry about this. god that was embarrassing

thanks .i think i’m just going to go to bed im really tired

what else am i supposed to do. I have no one to talk to.

i mean besides you.

i was waiting for that little geek for five hours. Five.

i think i can talk now but dont make fun of how my voice sounds im seriously dehydrated